Times are hard.

It's unfair how children are made to pay for their parents' mistakes. How they're made to suffer for their parents' wrongdoings.

She was the one who got pregnant before she could handle it. She was the one who had no choice but to marry him or be called the local slut. She was the one who continued to have 3 more children with him.

Why put more lives to suffer when you can't even handle your own?

As much as it invades the human right, I think people should have tests of some sort to test whether a person is capable of being a parent before allowing them to be a parent.

Yes, I know. It freaking invades the human right. And it's freaking stupid and ridiculous. Yes, I can see that. And I know I would hate it if they imposed it on me.

But when you've grown up in a completely dysfunctional family with no inkling of what a proper family should be like till you're almost 20 and still living in this nightmare of a family, you'd understand why I'd say such things.

And no, I'm not being a teenage drama mama.

Things that happen in this family is so drama and ridiculous and completely irrational and senseless, you wouldn't believe it's reality. You wouldn't believe how a woman of 43 years has no common sense or conscience or morals in her and is a mother of 4. 4 whom are which perfectly functional and only screwed up because of the environment they grew up in.

And regardless of how I sound of my family and my background, I guess I wouldn't change a thing. It's what made me who I am. The strong, self-dependent and completely rational head-over-heart woman that I am. Even though I admit I am screwed up in ways you can hardly imagine, it's made me more matured in ways.

As much as I wished I had been in a more proper family, I'm thankful for being here. Cause without this, I would never have found the one I love. And I probably would have ended up with a hell of a jerk.

Yes, so I'm thankful even though I hate where I come from.